This is the bush track that leads to Lucia's school. It's a familiar walk for Eva, Lucia and I. Today though was all about Eva, as she is at orientation right now.
She ran so fast down this path, I had to speed walk to keep up with her. Over her shoulder she kept throwing comments at me so fast that I couldn't properly digest what she was saying...stuff like:
"I don't need a cuddly anymore, I'm too big"
"Where is my classroom?"
"Will I see Lucia today?"
"Will Abbey be here?"
"When can I start big school?"
She let go of my hand in the classroom and moved to be closer to the other yellow name tag kids. She kept looking at me and smiling, her excitement was palpable. When it was time to walk to KC classroom she waved and told me she loved me then she was gone.
I walked alone up the bush track with tears in my eyes, trying to brush them away, I didn't want the other mums seeing my vulnerability. At home I cried, only because she is my last...that's it. And she was so ready, more ready than I realised, but by geez I wasn't, not at all. Those tears took me by surprise!
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Oh Sophie. So exciting for Eva but so hard for you x
Awe. Such a sweet post. I can understand the tears.
Hope you are feeling better Sophie. Eva looked so cute in her pigtails today at Kindy, so grown up.
Aww. I know! Each time I've had a kid start school it's been very wierd to have tears in my eyes about it. Being your last I can imagine it would feel even weirder.
Why don't dads cry about this sort of stuff?!
Oh I'm teary just reading that.... I felt the same with Ellie and she is my first! The time just flies and as much as some days are so overwhelming with little ones, there are so many days that I just want to hold on to.... just want time to stop for a little while!
I can't believe she's off to school! How come she's so ready and we're so not??
Hope you're feeling better.
Love Mel.
I have tears just reading your post. I cry every year when school goes back. Our school has a morning tea on that first day, to help the mothers cope!
Such a hard time isn't it? I know with N, I had this immense grief - and I've still got one to go. And maybe another, one day.. But my big boy - going to school. Crazy.
Hope you are feeling better about it now - she looks so thrilled.
xxx
Oh wow! That seesm too soon? Hope you are doing OK. xxx
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